The K MacKenzie Official

It doesn’t necessarily need to take a keen observer to notice, I haven’t been in the best headspace. I’m not going to sugar coat it; all the noise in my head made it difficult to concentrate on anything for a while. Journaling has been my comfort for clearing the fog . Unfortunately, writing causes many sleepless nights. Chasing one thought after another.      No doubt 2023 was a rough year for me. My professional life in retail has been among the biggest stresses. Less a career, more customer service with the added fun of cleaning up after adults who behave worse than children. Meanwhile, working towards a future including financial security, while facing similar lack of or dwindling hours which forced me to leave previously where I was in the summer of '21. Compelling me once again, to seek better opportunities elsewhere. Including my hope to apply for post-secondary education this year in the field of massage therapy . My work life in retail has consisted of scheduled closing s

Since my decision to take a step back from social media, I have had a lot of time to clear my head. During my hiatus, I have been busy despite growing inconsistent hours at work. As 2023 began, a promising new year with steady shifts quickly devolved into major cutbacks in working hours, briefly occurring in May then financially affecting me (especially as I have 3 bank accounts to think about) starting in August. What began as a request for schedule changes, was rapidly responded with false accusations: I’m too opinionated Not performing my duties at work Not wanting to work or do my job I’m too slow Simply seeking earlier shifts which would allow me to be on the floor sooner was met instead with a negative reaction over an amicable solution, frustrating an already frustrated situation. Moreover, I was NEVER trained in the department I was switched to after initially being hired in September 2021 for another department entirely. To address this, how would I begin to know how to do a

Recently, I announced I would be taking time away from both Twitter & Instagram for the remainder of 2023. My plan was to remain active on both Pinterest & Spotify. Not long after my post about leaving to clear my head, I began experiencing technical issues with my computer. Originally noticing these problems on Wednesday September 13, 2023; my computer appeared to have crashed. Forced to call Geek Squad, initially I was told to push & hold down the main power button after failing to find a flip switch on the back of my device. Failing to work, I was left with no other option but to pull the main power cord to my tower. Appearing to have solved the problem, I rebooted my computer and hung up with Geek Squad. It wasn’t until the next day however, after completing a series of Windows Updates that my computer crashed yet again! Forcing me to make an in-person visit to Best Buy, I made an appointment for a Geek Squad tech to visit my home; which one did on Sunday September 17,

Friendship these days is like a game of Russian Roulette. Either you’ll never have to worry or you wind up with the bullet leaving the chamber. Frankly, I’m no stranger to walking away from former friends. I’ve left behind a trail of severed connections, all with their own reason & history. Of the many friendships I had, I can’t help looking back with regret. But also with an understanding without those various personalities, I wouldn’t be who and where I am today! Stronger & wiser. At the same time, wishing I could go back and change the inevitable outcome. Despite this, I still managed to get myself out of a bad situation. Albeit with several scars along the way. Like any relationship either romantic or platonic, the most important element is TRUST . One of those sayings I and many others have grown up with is: “you can pick your friends, but you can’t pick your family.” But what if those certain friends in your life become family? I don’t have a great relationship with my

The definition of change often coincides with the cycle of death & rebirth. In nature, we see this each year with the passing of one season into the next. The symbolism of the butterfly is a wonderful representation of metamorphosis. Transitioning and evolving during each life cycle. Change however, can mean many different things. As the world isolated itself due to a global pandemic, COVID 19 changed how we lived and communicated with each other. At this moment, many are still feeling the loss of their loved ones who won’t be with them during this holiday season; to share in the happy memories and new or old traditions. As we return to normal, those same changes will be felt as we learn new ways to coexist and work together for the betterment of humanity.      For those of us who live in the commonwealth & Great Britain, no change was more deeply felt than when the world said goodbye to Her Majesty Queen Elizabeth the 2nd in September of last year. For 70 years, Queen Elizabet

What is the psychology of a hater? According to the Huffington Post : The psychology of a hater is someone imposing their self-hate onto others. It’s not as much about you, as it is about them. According to Psychology Today : a phenomenon known as projection, (coined by Austrian neurologist Sigmund Freud) describes a tendency to reject what we don’t like about ourselves with a desire to fill the void due to a lack of self-compassion. Demonstrating some people’s feelings of inadequacy. Having walked away from Facebook & those I assumed were my “friends” in 2016, the last thing I wanted was to find myself once again involved with noxious characters. Sadly, that is what I encountered in mid 2021. Someone who I believed was a genuine fan of the same Finnish rock band, I also enjoy musically. Unfortunately discovering instead, a mentally unbalanced individual, obsessed with rock stars, sex, drugs & rock n’ roll and now terrifyingly; someone who is also obsessed with me! In my po